control freak

This is how I felt until about noon: everything went wrong today!
This is what I realized at about noon: everything just didn't go how I wanted it to go

A tidbit of my day:
I woke up to the blaring alarm clock
I am a Snooze Addict
Admittedly, I was probably going for my 10th or so Snooze
Well, boy did I get a wake up call
I reach for the Snooze, and instead, knock over the glass of water
it spills partially on my head and on the bed
woo hoo! GOOD MORNING!

I go to the car dealership with Eric's car to redeem repairs on the recall notice we got.
No worries - just to replace the door handles since the material has been peeling off and cutting people. I thought they could take care of it right away, but apparently they have to see if you qualify for the recall first and then they order the part, and then you make another appointment.
apparently it took them over an hour to find out whether we qualified (when they said it would be half an hour).

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Yesterday, Eric asked me if I thought I have "control" issues. Well, it's kind of obvious when your hubby asks you that, the answer is YES.

Then all I could think as the day seemed to be going really really TERRIBLY was: "wow, if I need to learn how to trust God more and not be such a cranky pants when things don't go my way, and actually have faith that God is always at work, does that mean that He is going to give me a lots of opportunities to work on that?" Oh God, please no.

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truly, today wasn't bad at all. It was actually a pretty good day after I talked to God about it. But honestly, all my examples are different things that didn't go my way. and I have days where I get mad about the dumbest things. I used to be the really chill customer, oh no problem, I understand, I used to be in retail. Now I feel like I'm the psycho bitch that says things like, "Um I think it would be advisable if..." and rolls her eyes.

Believe it or not, I really love sanctification. that's all I have to say for now. Oh and Jesus is awesome.