Home Economics

In the church, in my church, the role of the stay-at-home-mom (SAHM) has been graced with great honor. I think I've always taken that for granted. I've known for a long time that Jesus has called me homeward. It hasn't been the easiest to accept at times, especially given the fact that I grew up in a home where both my parents worked a lot and my grandmother raised me and ran our home. The realm of home management doesn't come easy for me for many reasons...

I didn't have a good model for it.
I didn't grow up in a disciplined home either. I literally had no chores growing up. No curfew, either!
I'm a sinner - lazy and selfish.

For a while now, I thought I was being faithful to God's call in my life. Heck, I went from full-time to part-time at my old job, before I was pregnant, just so I could be more homeward. That's good and all, but I think I haven't been thinking enough about how to be faithful now. Being faithful to what Jesus has called me to will continue to look different in all seasons of life...as He challenges me more and more to live for Him. I need to continually seek Him. Walk by the Spirit. Keep in step with the Spirit (Gal 5:25).

This weekend, God gave me a rude awakening. I've been worshiping and serving myself, not worshiping Him and serving others (and therefore, Him). I haven't been taking His call seriously. I really haven't been giving it my all. Just been trying to get by. I proudly and foolishly assumed that I knew enough to manage my home. And by that, I mean, I have done very little to grow in wisdom and knowledge about how to become a better home manager.

Realizing how much more I could be doing, or how important my role is ....was really quite humbling and sobering. God has given me an opportunity to create a safe haven for my family. He has given me an opportunity to be my son's first teacher, in all matters of life. I thank God that He has helped me understand more what my role is and how He wants to use me.

I'm praying for lots of help! And I know He'll give it because our God is good.