this summer we have stayed in. and received many many visitors. this summer, this year, for that matter - i'm learning more and more how ungracious of a person i am. i am learning more about how lavish God's grace is. i am learning more about how selfish i am. the funny thing is, i swear these revelations are never-ending. i am a sinful person. equally, i am a forgetful person.
Not suprisingly, God has always showed up to save the day, to save me. and yet, with every story i see it - in my life, in others...i can still so easily forget my Maker. the reason i'm here. that His love is better than life.
i don't want to despair over my shortcomings, or my very flesh. i want to rejoice that through Christ my flesh has no power over me. that i can live in and through Him, to walk by His Spirit. to live the life that is truly life.
Eric and I are studying Ephesians together. As I read 1:1-14, it says that we are chosen, adopted, redeemed, forgiven by God, united with God, heirs with Christ, secured by God - all for His glory. This puts me in awe. It says that our God is gracious, glorious, wise, purposeful, rich, all-knowing, all-powerful, transcends time, loving. Good news indeed.
I used to be a very articulate person. in my prayers. in my conversations with others. for the past few years, i have found that changing. i feel scattered. distracted. with wandering thoughts and images. i am uncomfortable with this haze and i wish for it to leave. is it pride? self-absorption? a season? ...either way, i think i finally feel comfortably knowing that i can rest in the hands of my Father. it's okay that i feel this way. God still holds on to me and i am thankful for that. Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.
